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When I was pregnant, the only thing I really knew about was Postpartum Depression. I knew a few friends who struggled with it and knew it could be a pretty powerful thing. I honestly could not understand why someone with a brand new baby and family could ever feel “sad”! I was relieved when my son was born and I didn’t think I had any sort of “baby blues” or postpartum depression.
I did however, find my heart racing and getting really upset whenever my son would cry. I thought it was normal new parent feelings. I got to the point where I did not want to be alone with him or go out alone with him because I was so worried he would cry. At night I would panic when he woke up crying (even though it was usually just because he was hungry).
My mom suggested I talk to my doctor about it and that is how I learned that Postpartum Anxiety is also something new mom’s suffer from. My doctor gave me medication that I would take when I really needed it and that would help me a lot, but the best medicine was just time.
Over time, I saw that he sleeps fine through the night and is fine. I saw that it was fine going out with him – he may fuss and cry but that’s OK. 15 months later, I have found that my anxiety is so much better, but not gone completely. There are still certain instances where it can pop up. I have learned how to address it and deal with it in a healthy way when it does pop up.
Since I had never even heard of postpartum anxiety, I wanted to share my experience so others could hear about it and know they aren’t alone.
**Please speak with your doctor if you have questions or need help**